I Want To Be Someone You Trust

     I want to be someone you trust. And... I don't know. I don't know how to get my thoughts out this time. No matter how much I write and tweak the usage of my words... No matter how much I cry and deprive myself of this sleep that I seek to give my body the energy needed to keep going like I'm surviving every time I look at you... No matter how much I run and run and run and scream that I CAN'T DO THIS. No matter how much I ask someone, anyone, to just help me... No matter what, it won't be enough. I'd surely fall if You weren't with me. The writing and the running and the pleading and the crying and the screaming and the waiting won't do a thing but exhaust this heart and this soul and this little mind. 

     I am finite. 

     I'd surely fall if You didn't introduce me to these people of comfort. I'd surely 

     fall. I've fallen and I'm falling and I can't even raise my head to see how far I'm dropping. I'm falling and I'm falling and it's this feeling I have come to know. I'm falling and falling and I can't find my oh so quiet voice to scream. I'm falling and I can't see how much longer there is to          fall. I'm falling and falling and falling because 

     I am finite. 

I'm falling and falling and falling and falling and 

     You catch me. 

     Your infinite arms hold me. 

     Your infinite eyes see me. 

     Your love captures me. 

     They're falling and falling and I can't do a thing but ask You to help them... to catch them... to hold them... to see them. 

     They're 

                      falling and I must tell them.